Ikiteru Hikikatari

When I was born, I was handed over
Without understanding how to use this sword
I raised it and hurt myself

I never thought it would come to this
Trying to escape from sin
Blaming someone else, saying it's their fault
I became skilled at blaming others

Just living is wonderful
How much longer until I can say it's enough?
Meeting people who are not wonderful
Seeing scenes that are not wonderful
I have to believe in a me that is not wonderful

After knowing the horror of hurting others
I eventually stopped using the sword I cherished

Before I knew it, I lost the skill to protect myself
This time, I became full of wounds
Is hurting others the reward?
Self-inflicted punishment
I can't accept it, again

Just living is wonderful
How much longer until I can say it's enough?
For the sake of protecting a not wonderful me
I must not kill

How much longer can I live?
In the time left behind, how much can I learn to love myself?
I just want to smile, that's all I want to do

Just living is wonderful
Actually, even now, I can't say it
Why can't I say it?
Why am I so sad?
But it's not because I'm sad, while shedding tears
I wish to keep living like this

Just breathing in and out is not enough
I end up wanting even the pain
But I can't do it because you're here
That's why I keep living