Warum?

FOR MELANIE (1973-1994)

We knew each other for years, went on crazy adventures together
The world belonged to us and we didn't need money for that
We just let ourselves drift, we didn't want to miss anything
We didn't want to become like the people we hate
Just a look from you and I knew exactly
What you think, what you feel - that great trust among women
It knocked me off my feet
It was completely clear, I could always count on you

No party without us, always right in the middle
Where life is raging without any rules
It was awesome, that time, we were ready for anything
And when I think about it today and it screams deep inside me
I regret not being tougher on you
Because I sensed the danger, it was there, it was close
It was hard to miss, but I didn't want to understand
The wind has changed, it's too late

And why?
Just for the thrill - for the moment?
And why?
Just for a piece - of that false happiness?
And why?
Just for the thrill - for the moment?
And why?
You'll never come back - come back...

Every now and then smoking a joint, diving into other worlds
That was still okay, what I understand well
But then it started with things that were less funny
But you had to do it
I just stood there, couldn't talk to you anymore
Everything you said was 'this is my life'
My life belongs to me alone and no one else interferes
Let it be, let it be - it restricts me

I looked into your eyes, they were dead, they were empty
They couldn't laugh anymore, they were tired, they were heavy
You didn't have much left to give because in your new life
You had fully surrendered to a foreign power

Money money money, you tortured yourself for money
To get it, easy come easy go
You went to the streets, but not for yourself
Only for your dealer, with a smile on your face

And why?