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I remember the last time I saw you, long after the end
Another phase
Almost to the point of forgetting, after suffering and understanding
Freedom
Almost wondering if what I loved was you
Or just a memory

And it was shocking to see you again right in front of me
And the impact of not being so different
And all those crazy symbols that someone
Could mean for us
And all those memories I barely remembered having

Because suddenly we were already
Talking again, laughing at each other
Then she got serious again and said
Dude, don’t you feel even a little bit?
You know I try to stay tough to forget
But I really do miss you a lot

She laughed at my face, I laughed at hers
The tightness in my chest, the genuine laughter
And the shy intimacy of not knowing
If we still know each other
And the feeling of sitting again in that strange comfort

And like the lyrics of the song playing, we laughed, and laughed, and laughed
How long has it been since I got high, I said
She: See? Way better than drinking
How rare it is for me to feel this comfortable with someone these days

It’s just that you, me, us two already have a past, she sang and pulled me to the room
Eyes locked, both naked, holding each other until the end
To then rest on my chest
My fingers in your hair, skin on the sheets

The beatlemania, the indie, the mutants, the postcards
The inside jokes, our legs intertwined
Tired of this never again, all the scars you gave me
And the sad marks I left on you

And if before no one cried anymore, now everyone’s crying
And we looked deep into each other and did it again
For a while, but without reaching the end
Because it starts to hurt to mess with emotions this way

I guess I was a fool to think this was just a physical desire
To think we had moved on, were at another point
And maybe we shouldn’t mess with what, finally, is healing

I didn’t even want to think, she said
I want to erase all of this
I just wanted to go back to where we stopped before getting lost along the way
I didn’t know how cold life was without your affection

But sadder is knowing that we know it got cold together too
And if the best option in this story is bad, how can there be any sense?
And she laughed, for the last time, and jumping on me said
We’re all fucked

But me naked and her on top of me, we did nothing but stay silent
Noticing that we both have been through everything, and deep down, deep down
There’s nothing left for us

And maybe not even talking, nor crying
Because for us, even goodbye has passed
Because we know, and maybe always knew
That only apart do we find a way out
And that sometimes you have to choose between love and joy in life

I remember the last time I saw you
Long after the end
Another phase