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I remember the last time I saw you, long after the end
Another phase
Already in the time of almost forgetting, post-suffering and understanding
Freedom
Almost to the point of wondering if what I loved was you
Or was it just an image

And it was shocking to see you again in front of me
And the impact of not being so different
And all that crazy pile of symbols that someone
For us could be
And the many memories that I didn't even remember having

Because suddenly we were already
Talking again, laughing at each other
She then became serious again and said
Dude, don't you feel even a little bit anymore?
You know I try to stay tough to forget
But I do miss you a lot

She laughed at my face, I laughed at hers
The tightness in the chest, the sincere laughter
And the shy intimacy of those who no longer know
If they still know each other
And the feeling of sitting again in this strange comfort

And like the lyrics of the song that was playing, we laughed, and laughed and laughed
How long has it been since I got high, I said
She: See? Much better than alcohol
How rare it is for me to feel so comfortable with someone nowadays

It's that I, you, both of us already have a past, she sang and pulled me into the room
Eyes in eyes, both naked, embraced together until the end
To then rest on my chest
My fingers in your hair, skin on the sheet

The beatlemania, the indie, the mutants, the postcards
The inside jokes, the intertwined legs
Tired of this never again all the scars you made on me
And the sad marks I left on you

And if before no one cried anymore, now everyone cries
And we looked deep into each other's eyes and did it once again
For some time, but already without reaching the end
Because it's painful to mess with emotions like this

I think I was foolish to think that this was just a body's desire now
To think that we had already overcome it, were at another point
And maybe we shouldn't mess with what, finally, is healing

I didn't even want to think, she said
I want to erase all of this
I just wanted to go back to where we left off before getting lost on the way
I no longer knew how cold life was without your affection

But sadder is to know that we know that together it also became cold
And if the best option in this story is bad, how can there be any sense?
And she laughed, for the last time, and jumping on top of me said
We're all screwed

But me naked and her on top of me did nothing but silence
Realizing that we both have been through everything, and deep down, deep down
There was nothing left for us

And maybe not even talking, not even crying
Because for us even the farewell has passed
Because we know, and maybe always knew
That only separated we find a way out
And that sometimes you choose between love and joy in life

I remember the last time I saw you
Long after the end
Another phase