Scivoli di Nuovo

You count hurt
Things that didn't go as you wanted
Always fearing and only appearing worse
Than what you really know you are

Precise counts to remember
How many glances you avoided
And how many words you didn't say
To avoid disappointing

The house, the whole day
The journey you took to feel safer
Closer to yourself
But it's not enough
It's never enough...

You slide again and again
As if you were a morning to dress and cover
To not be ashamed you slide again and again
As if
You were waiting only to surprise the faces
Distracted, too absent to understand your silences
There's a world of intentions behind
The transparent eyes
That you close a bit...

You go back to feeling the edges
Of that missed courage
That in an instant make your gaze lower
And your thoughts invisible

You go back to counting
The days you knew wouldn't wait for you
You closed too many doors and to reopen them
You must embrace what you no longer have

The house, the clothes, the party
And your smile held back after exploding
To hurt me less
But it's not enough
It's never enough...

You slide again and again like...

And you want no mistakes
But you want to live because those who don't live
Leave the mark of the biggest mistake

You slide again and again like...

That I close a bit...
That you close...