Ideal Paradox

I want you to heal my fleeting impulses right
I want someone to kill off my undeniable selfishness
I don’t need to exist anymore
You just need to live your life
Being the outcast is actually just right for me
Everything turns to sand

The infinite reality is
Yeah, it’s the ideal paradox
Chaos deceives us

Hey, it’s all my

Is my darkness the problem?
Who did my struggles hurt?
Surely, those who are dying will soon fade away
Who do I trust, what do I despair over, where do I breathe?
I don’t know anything anymore
I just want to end it all, just like this ideal, ah

I want you to bind my realistic actions tight
I want you to hate me for hurting myself so low
I can’t live anymore, but
You can forget about me
The dreams I had yesterday are really nothing at all
Everything turns to sand

The truth of the ideal is
Yeah, it’s the disguised paradox
Chaos deceives us

Hey, it’s all my

Is the lie the problem?
Who really got hurt?
Surely, the good adults will just erase the issues
What do you believe in, who do you despair over, why do you hate me?
I don’t understand anything anymore
I just want to end it all, just like this ideal, ah
The truth is in the dream.