Mulheres da Minha Vida (feat. Orlando Santos)

These first words are for you, my daughter
My larva daughter, who only crawled and smiled
I remember when you couldn't walk or talk yet
You wanted to speak, and when you tried, you mooed
Now you're sixteen years old, a woman with life
You've grown so much, and already so experienced
Do you remember when I took you to your idols' concerts?
You were captivated and deeply moved

Now you see me overwhelmed and beaten down
I'm no longer a strong father, I'm a defeated man
I was more than successful when I had the shoe store
The business was thriving, almost a hundred clients a day
Until austerity came
Unemployment, misery, calamity
No one consuming, chaotic
It was when I lost all my customers
Not a single one remained, and I went bankrupt

Now you see me here unemployed, plunged into the storm
Finished for the job market and not even forty yet
I'm not hired anywhere, not even at a Call Center
My faith shatters as I age
Today I'm a failure, an invalid, broke
You look at me with disdain, I no longer recognize you
I weaken seeing that your love had a price
And every time you show me that repulsion, you see me weaken

You no longer respect me, as if you didn't know me
Sometimes you still say you wish I would disappear
And if I died? Would it affect you?
Would the agony of my death not touch you?
Would you remain indifferent and cold?
Would no tear of pain reach you?
I know I'm no longer the father you were proud of
Who came home with those gifts you longed for
The father you loved and who today is a failure
Today is just an old and lost burden

So I come home with my friends
And you don't understand that I wanted to watch TV in the living room?
Oh, oh Sara
Dad, is it normal that I wanted to come here?
The TV is bigger, you can see better
Calm down, Sara
Couldn't you watch TV in your room?
Oh Sara, please, let's talk
You spend the whole day at home doing nothing
Sara...
And on top of that, you don't make people feel comfortable, what the hell!

By the way, just kill me already
By the way, just kill me already
By the way, just shoot me
By the way, just shoot me

Sónia, do you remember us running through the meadow?
Rolling in the grass, stuck together, two kids in love, memorable
I was your first boyfriend, it's been twenty shared years
Under the same roof, remarkable
But everything seems to have collapsed when the business failed
Your love extinguished, I don't know
Where is the love you nurtured, and that my love colored
I was your shiver, your king
Now you're always agitated, with that irritated voice
You shout at me for nothing, why?
Always with exaggerated fury, I've never seen you so heartless
It's clear you're fed up, why?

When the shoe store generated big profits
You said our love would be absolute
And that from it would arise the fruit that would be the tribute
Of this passion that now plunges into mourning
Now you treat me only violently
Always throwing in my face that you're the one supporting me
Always throwing bloody words in my face
Always throwing in my face that you can't stand me anymore
You make me think our union was just a business

Now you only give me this aversion, you don't even want me close
I have no solution but to stay docile
I know you're just one argument away from asking for a divorce
You see me as a tumor, we no longer make love
You sleep with your back to me as if you feel terror
Everyone knows you cheat on me with the neighbor across the street
The whole building hears your screams when you fuck
You're not even concerned about being more discreet
You still bring him to dinner here like it happened yesterday
I just have to watch, accept, swallow
I depend on you, I have nowhere else to go

I just have to watch, accept, swallow
Because if I left home, I wouldn't have anywhere to go
Because if I left home, I wouldn't have anywhere to go

By the way, just kill me already
By the way, just kill me already
By the way, just shoot me
By the way, just shoot me

Pedro, what are you doing Pedro?!
Look at me, calm down
Sara come here, Sara, look at your father
Pedro, calm down, calm down, Pedro why are you doing this
Why? Talk to me, Pedro
Calm down
Shot
Pedro! Oh no, Sara, oh Sara look at your father, Sara
Oh, look at your father, Sara
Come here, look at your father, Sara
Look at your father