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If I write, I bleed out, and if I bleed out, I write
That's why what I tell is a repetitive cycle
Where the bird with vertigo dreamed of leaving the nest
But how could it do that if it only hears gunshots?
A while back, I swore to Cupid
Lover of silence, girl, love me in secret
If others know, they’ll just make noise

And if what we have is theirs, then let it stop being mine
I know damn well that if I call you, I’ll screw it up
But it’s just that love blinds me so much
I’m not a bad kid, no
It was you who took all the good away
Another night, I take another shot
Thinking it’s been a long time since we’ve seen each other
Happiness in my brother’s eyes

If I grab it with my hands, it slips through my fingers
On my arm, I have my grandpa tattooed
For all the times I’ve held back saying I love you
Thinking about your ass costs too much
Comforting doesn’t fill me up, I’m talking about money
The most valuable things can’t be bought
Like the look right before saying goodbye
I keep thinking I shouldn’t think of you
I keep feeling I shouldn’t feel you

Ask the lie if the truth hurts so much
Like carrying it in your eyes for months
I answer that I don’t know, it depends on the moment
Though discovering one left me more than wrecked
It’s not that I can’t sleep
It’s just that some nights at 4 still feel too early
Even if it’s late to go back to that us
Find me in other gazes, feel me in other bodies

My lips taste like the kisses we won’t give
That’s why if I miss you, I lick my lips
I keep eating the ceiling and forgetting you with grams
I feel pressure in my chest, that’s when I call you
You caught between two waters, and I have seas in my eyelids
You don’t know what the monsters invented every Saturday
I’m not going to talk about how little we are
Though I would do it with love for how much we were
But I wanted the part that was with me
Not the one that acted when I wasn’t a witness
A nail pulls out another nail, said instinct
God doesn’t want you to end up like Christ
Leaving a trail in case I get lost
Another time I fall and get up all by myself
Who’s going to do it if not me?
I swore it was forever
And what’s more eternal than forgetting?

It’s easy to come when the storm calms
Stay with me on my rainy days
Chill, bro, no need for an umbrella
Bring some substance, 'cause today my cheeks are dripping

It’s easy to come when the storm calms
Stay with me on my rainy days
Chill, bro, no need for an umbrella
Bring some substance, 'cause today they’re dripping

I plant wilted flowers in my garden
In case I gather pain, I won’t be surprised
'Cause if it’s the other way around, I feel a knot in my throat
Forgiveness kneeling before sin

I don’t know if I’m still alive, no
I don’t know why I do it
Maybe if I bleed out, I write
Or if I write, I bleed out.