Re:Birthed

Just like sand that I wanted to hold
And saw fall for being so fine
What these hands longed for the most
Escapes again, through my fingers
To face you, to kill only you
It was that I was born and still alive
Even what you're worth, even what I'm worth
Maybe one day it will serve a purpose?

I'm part of a spiral that never ends
There's no way out of my sad reality
The despair that spins in me
I poison the ideals I chose!
Pathetic, without merit, I cling to a feeling I deny
What else to do but laugh?
If what I wanted to protect I lost
Why do I keep facing you?
But dancing in the ashes that today I create for justice

I regret everything in me, it's murdered!

Not a trace of any flower remains
Monochrome is this world
Now only the pleasure it brings me
The red it provokes, the cold metal
To face you, to kill only you
I was created, that's why I'm alive
Pathetic past or my vain future
Hypocrisy won't touch them!

The foolish dream I longed for is now history
Only my sadness and memory remain
The despair that spins in me
I destroy the ideals I chose!
I want to hate it, and destroy it
I pretend to forget everything about it
What else to do but laugh?
If I've been breaking and destroying endlessly
Why is my unsatisfied heart?
As if I cover with ashes the justice I used to venerate

I can finally end with the confusing reality

If to face you, and kill only you
Is why I was born if it's my destiny
Then those hands, and that beautiful song
There's no choice but to forget them!

The foolish dream I longed for is now history
Only my sadness and memory remain
The despair that spins in me
I poison the ideals I chose
Pathetic, without merit, I cling to a feeling I deny
What else to do but cry?
If there's no reason to fight anymore
Why do we choose to continue this war?
Those ashes that will burn in me after the justice I thought I sought

Are proof that I exist!

United in a spiral that never ends
And that sword that fiercely shakes
I only feel my mind spinning
Because of that dream I chose
To kill you? Or to rescue you? Unforgivable
What are my feelings?
I can't understand!
Who did I want to protect so much?
Who did I want to destroy so much?
With these trembling hands
I could grasp the answer in red

We and reality
Today we will end

Let's give it an end!
Ah!