Quadrat Im Kreis

Now and then I realize,
that I can't laugh anymore
about things I used to find funny.

Now and then I also notice,
that I don't need people,
and I prefer to be all alone.

But the pain is bittersweet
and somehow so familiar,
I've gotten used to it.
So once again, what's missing
is just a little bit of courage
and the paradoxical anger about it
is drowned in dreams
by the damn ease of appearances.

Now and then it becomes clear to me,
that everything has changed,
as it seems, from what it used to be.

Now and then I feel,
that I don't like the sun anymore,
because I can't stand the bright light.

But the pain is bittersweet
and somehow so familiar,
I've gotten used to it.
So once again, what's missing
is just a little bit of courage
and the paradoxical anger about it
is drowned in dreams
by the damn ease of appearances.

Like a square in a circle,
I keep bumping into things,
even though I’ve known for a long time,
that I can never change
what will never change,
because the bad always stays,
and yet the sun shines again,
no matter what happens.

Time and again I realize,
that the now and then
is becoming more and more
constant.