Masochist

Pain is what you crave
Sorrow's got a hold on you
Rejection gets you off
Your inclination
Stays misunderstood
Subordination
You thrive on the torture
Indignity is your vice
Fault you keep shrugging off
Feelings of inferiority
Are running your life

You're getting high
They’re hunting you down
In your twisted fantasy
You’re bleeding out
You’re getting beaten
They’re treating you
You’re running in your own blood
And you’re begging for more

"Despair, yeah despair.
The worst day you can
Imagine for yourself.
After that, I wanted men to treat me like dirt, to... violate me.
I love being abused when
The day is stuck inside me.
I met someone online
Who claimed to be a sadist.
But when I suggested
That he cut me with a sharp
Knife, you know what he said to me? "If I do that, you’ll bleed out."
I was so disappointed. I... wanted him to chop me into little pieces... piece by piece... Really tear me apart, with a sharp knife."

Agony
Let your heart race
Pain
Make my life a misery
Pang let you feel
That you are alive
Distracted by pain
You’re begging for more