Soy Un Estorbo

Let's go! Put on a smile!
Everyone asks me, but I'm not in a hurry
They're hurt by my condition or that's what they vocalize
They say they're worried about my sick mentality

I know I'm a burden and I know, I've always been like this
I can't kill myself alone and believe me, I won't do it for you
I'm sick of seeing them so worried
I don't believe them one bit, then I judge them

They say my little state is not a big deal
They don't know what it's like to live trapped under the skin
Don't ask me to calm down and get lost
A half-assed hug without enthusiasm doesn't do shit (fuck you)

Words of encouragement are useless
Just like a pat on the back
Every second is like a sharp dagger
But I put balls to it and act like nothing's wrong

What hurts you, to me, is just a game
If what's mine hurt you, you'd be in fucking hell
Want to try it? Come and step on my turf
You'll immediately know it's not like walking in the hay

I was born and raised with an acute disorder, period
Believe me, I don't care if this is an insult to you
I don't need everyone's approval
Everyone is as fake as a funeral in mourning

What do you pretend to be?!
Better stay quiet
You scream behind my back
What you've kept inside
I could see in you
That it hurts to see me move forward
Even though you say to my face
That I've earned it

And alone! Return alone!
Karma comes back on its own
Hate me alone!
How much does your price weigh?
Just leave me alone!
Like Judas, you kiss me
It kills you to see them tempt you
Thirty measly coins

I don't ask for comfort, if it doesn't come in the form of drugs
I don't care if this shit suits you
Your damn trend became my damn therapy
My words are sharp to skin tilapia

The doc diagnosed me with OCD, get rid of it
Get rid of it, my opposition is aggressive like this CD
In the mental research CD
My case became weird and they can't fix it

A personality gave me advice
Kill the other two who want to steal your light
Another deja vu in which I can change the outcome
Leave them in a coffin, it'll be less complicated

My treatment must be complex
While everyone treats me like a ghost from afar
They say I'm crazy and none retract
While the walls bleed from bare fists

With anger issues and self-harm on the body
They get depressed over emojis
I'm in this damn hell full of medications
I can't live in the moment, I don't belong in this moment

Time doesn't match what's in the mirror
The illness tells me I have little time left
While I think about these lyrics
The crazy guy next door lurks at your door

What do you pretend to be?!
Better stay quiet
You scream behind my back
What you've kept inside
I could see in you
That it hurts to see me move forward
Even though you say to my face
That I've earned it

And alone! Return alone!
Karma comes back on its own
Hate me alone!
How much does your price weigh?
Just leave me alone!
Like Judas, you kiss me
It kills you to see them tempt you
Thirty measly coins