J'Y Crois Encore

You feel his glances flattering you
You see your cheeks blush
You are not immune
Against his smile

You see him circling around
You try to escape him
But his little glamorous air
Does not leave your thoughts

You feel him tracing your heart
And without saying a word you look at him
But you don't see my pain
I feel like crying but I hold back

Even if I hope
That four or five qualities
Come out of my eyes
To make your world bluer

What's the point of resisting
This hellish mist
Where since then I've been drowned
I throw my head back

But I still believe
I won't let myself die
Even until my death
In search of your smile
But I still believe
In my body, my own prison
And even if I get out of it
It won't be a reason
To believe again

Just imagining you
In his numb arms
Oh no, just thinking about it
I can't sleep at night anymore

But don't let me suffer anymore
Oh just finish me off!
I'd rather die
Than have my journey be shorter

But I know he's there
And maybe it's my fault
I still take on myself
One more sob and I jump

Can't you see my eyes
Bleeding like a thousand arteries
No, can't you see the skies
Misted with my anger

In fact, you see nothing
Just the blue of his eyes
It's too dark in mine
But I do what I can

I still believe
I won't let myself die
Even until my death
In search of your smile
I still believe, I still believe
The ghosts of our memories
And even if they are wrong
Nothing can ever destroy them
I still believe