Guerra Interna

Year
2020
Says

Recurring thoughts, I just want to be happy
Even if it meant giving up writing
Where do our dreams go? I think they cease to exist
Every time we wake up still in this gray world
And today I write you what I feel and that's already a lot to say
Feelings overwhelm me, I don't even recognize myself
My internal monster overshadows me, fighting to come out
I've won more than one battle but it's my endless war

Tell me your goals
Tell me your achievements
Tell me the times you try to get out of the hole
We don't realize but others help us
My numb arms have never fought alone
I don't know what to do anymore, I've tried a thousand paths
Aging kills me, the fear of not being alive

Is it normal to want to see what destiny holds for me?
I don't care if it's a woman or a man who goes with me
Strength to those who supported me, that's why I'm here
And the rest we ignore, I have nothing more to say
Today I plan to spend my words on those who want to see me happy

I don't value what I have, and I'm going to value myself?
I feel stuck and my mind stops
Without having gotten out of one and I already mess up the next
I feel like a child getting lost in the crowd
Intimidated by the height of the monster in front of me

And I'm going to jump into the void and I'm proud of it
Because where I'm happy only I know
I give a thousand thanks to my parents for giving me all their support
And anyone else who shares my pain
There's nothing purer than what I say and I feel it
Words that come out crying from my broken heart

As Blessed said, if I die, keep my picture
Remember me for who I am, not for the spotlight
Recurring thoughts, I just want to be happy
Even if it meant giving up writing
Where do our dreams go? I think they cease to exist
Every time we wake up still in this gray world

I write you what I feel and that's already a lot to say
Feelings overwhelm me, I don't even recognize myself
My internal monster overshadows me, fighting to come out
I've won more than one battle but it's my endless war
(This is my endless war)