Merichane

I was there when everyone was dancing
Wetting their finger, thinking they were eternal
I was in the bathroom, holding the door with my back
While I kissed their tongues

I was there in the Universal offices
Swallowing sermons about my great potential
I was there hugging the toilet bowl
I couldn't let go and they couldn't look at me

I was there in the emergency room, caressing the limit
I needed something foolproof
I was on my knees asking for forgiveness from your god
For not knowing how to say no

I
Still there
And not knowing how to get out

I
Still there
Not knowing how to get out
And I can't escape

I was there, changing the names of my lovers
In the contact list
I was there, leaving my used panties in the closet
Screwing up a stranger's life

I was in the other room
Listening to their breathing, wishing they wouldn't come in
I was among the rough summer sheets
No longer being who I had dreamed

I
Still there
Not knowing how to get out
And I can't escape

I was there, with the keys in hand
Speeding up, pretending to talk to my brother
I was there, letting it happen
Just so it would end once and for all

I was there, confessing for touching myself
Thinking that was the damn sin
I was there, sticking my fingers deep
Wanting to vomit out the sorrows, life, the hatred

I
Still there
And not knowing how to get out

I
Still there
Not knowing how to get out
And I can't, I don't know how
Get myself out of here