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Kissing your lips, looking you in the face
I remember the kisses you used to give
Now without you, I am nothing
Since your goodbye, I've been waiting

An apology for everything, for everything I fought for
And now you look at me, what do you see?
A heart in the gutter and a desire to make myself stronger, forged in metal

Your children won't carry my last name
We won't take the trip we dreamed of
From strolling along the Nile
To ending up drowned in your eyelids

It feels like Monday, even though today is Saturday
It's better to end it, living deceived hurts more
At least tell me that the years we spent together were real
And that the 9th of that day won't be forgotten

I want you to tell me, was I innocent with people?
I didn't realize you lie
How you played with the mind, don't try
Now don't come telling me you're sorry

I have nothing left to lose because I gave it all
I don't regret loving, I don't know another way
It's hearing you and I suffocate
I don't know how to tell my psychologist that I don't do drugs anymore

I don't do drugs, you were my drug
I suffocate with the rope and the cross
Since you left, my sky has dressed in blue
Because how beautiful everything is without being blind
Because I can get out of your game

I rolled the dice and walked away from your shit
It was too late when I saw who you were
I had you on a pedestal, let you fall for me
If you don't appreciate what you have, don't come back when you lose it

You have been the first since we met
But for you, it hasn't been like that, we know
Where it hurts the most, a dog bite
Bleeding at night for you

You have been the first since we met
But for you, it hasn't been like that
As if I were just a piece of meat, chew and spit
And that hurts me like a junkie without his fix

There are relapses, but my life wouldn't go back
Remembering the moments when you lied to me
Saying you loved me, that you felt what I did
Now you're the unnameable like Voldemort

And I know I'm not perfect, neither are you
Although you love it for being on top of other women
Being the center of attention, the sensation of the unfaithful
And eating the heart of those who love you, yeah

I eat your heart if you don't eat mine
I can't cry anymore, that's why I smile
And I feel so useless when you mess with me
That's why I don't even trust my own shadow

I don't follow my heart anymore, nor my mind
I follow this pain that keeps going
For this emptiness, for this harmful cold
Let's see what you do to the next one

You have been the first since we met
But for you, it hasn't been like that, we know
Where it hurts the most, a dog bite
Bleeding at night for you

You have been the first since we met
But for you, it hasn't been like that
As if I were just a piece of meat, chew and spit
And that hurts me like a junkie without his fix