Je Rentre

If the trees have grown, from the gate where I am
I see swings and slides in the garden.
I ring with no answer, I don't wait, I rush,
I take the path, no mean dog.

I'm coming home, I mean to their home
I don't stay or just a little bit.
I'm coming to your home, like it was mine
When it was ours the last time.

If people are kind, how I thank them,
I see pens, markers, and coloring books in the living room.
If nothing has changed, everything is disturbed,
I know the house, I go upstairs,
And continue the journey.

I'm coming home, I mean to their home
I don't stay or just a little bit.
I'm coming to your home, like it was mine
When it was ours the last time.

If I hear screams jumping on the bed,
I push the door, I recognize myself.
The room where I was, what I lived
Little mixed-race girl, mischievous eyes,
Time transports me to what I was,
And if I leave.

People are smiling, thanking them,
No little coffee, I have to go.
We kiss each other, we say hello,
I wait to cry to pass the gate.

I'm coming home, I mean to their home
I don't stay or just a little bit.
I'm coming to your home, like it was mine
When it was ours the last time.

I make the promise not to believe in what lies to me anymore,
Not to deny myself in my suffering,
What has harmed me, I forgive and then...
Survive in sadness, so might as well see,
Drunk, live powerfully try to sort out
What I feel, childhood,
What is in my body, unable to explain what it is.

I make the promise not to believe in what lies to me anymore,
Not to deny myself in my suffering,
What has harmed me, I forgive and then...
Let go of my sadness, so might as well see,
Drunk, live powerfully try to sort out
What I feel, childhood,
What is in my body, unable to explain what it is.

I make the promise not to believe in what lies to me anymore,
Not to bother myself in my suffering,
What has harmed me, I forgive and then...
Release the sadness, so might as well see,
Drunk, live powerfully try to sort out
What I feel, childhood,
What is in my body, unable to explain what it is.