Descartes #3

Me, me
Ah

Don't knock on my door, I'm not there
I went out for a walk with my dog
I'm thinking about today
How happy we were, it terrifies me
How hard it was for us to get to the coast to then discover that we don't like the land that much
In my eternal chrysalis, there's no animal that will cheer up these mountains

I hope you don't miss me tomorrow when that fool talks to you about how much he goes out
Out there they're talking about how much I stand out and I'm trying to explain to them that we're all the same
I hope you don't miss me tomorrow when no one can stand you mixing it with personal problems

I hope you don't miss me tomorrow because I'm going to miss you and if we don't end this, I won't go anywhere
I like to think it's different
That you love me and will be there forever
But I know my desire lies to me, let's try in the next disgrace

Envy will be my only wife in this
Marry me against the darkest corner of your mind
Rest a minute before you leave
Writing this shit almost breaks my teeth
How can one be so weak and so strong?

I'm conceited from being so honest
There are a few who would kill for your place
And I understand that it scares you but you're still the best in the port
And it will remain so even if all this is dead
I want you to tell me your fears, one last time I'll tell you mine
I never did it with anyone, I want you to tell me what I lack, why don't you see me?

Let that lump in your throat untie with the air
I'm going overboard, among the rocks
With ten-day dark circles talking to the flies
At least they don't expect anything from me

It's been a while since I met someone who doesn't know me
How to tell another that my heart doesn't explode every time I see you, crazy?
That's why they don't love me, just what my mouth lets out
They know I'm in love with you, the truth doesn't matter

Another verse I cross out to not make you cry
I have to write a book, this audience doesn't respect me
I don't believe in talent even though I have plenty, ha
I still believe in you even though it kills me, sweat and money is what I have left
I let the tumor spread for not removing the bandages

I see how my future is built and my present falls apart
Laughing so I don't think like Chris Gardner
That infinite moment when I seem to matter to you
I think you need time to rethink things

Seeing you with others even if it hurts me in the flesh, so you can see that none of them make you feel as at home
And if it happens, I swear I'll be happy
I always weigh more on the side of your happiness on the scale
And if it happens, I just ask you to take care
So that with him you do forget what still destroys you