Después de Antes

The things I haven't told and still don't tell
More burden than you would think, mom
More talks but all empty
It was never the idea that it would affect the family

And now the boy thinks I don't love him, and I don't blame him
Between recordings and events, I forget to make time for him
It's never the right moment, I never apologize
I end up covering nothing by wanting everything at once

It's not just about recording anymore, although I would love it
Director, wardrobe and photography guide
Manager, contracts, contacts, and crap
I have to think about something every damn day

But don't get it wrong, I love this, the shows
The fans, the haters, and everything else
The doubts only make me focus
Those bitches want to make me lose my mind, ha

I know you hated when I left in the early morning
And when I came back, you acted like you didn't hear me
No one asked anything the next day
But yes, I lied to your face just because I felt like it

I don't know if the new me will like it so much
I don't even know if I'm liking this new me
My face doesn't reflect what the hell I'm playing today
My numbers don't reflect how I move the show

I laughed with a traitor and cried for a fool
I called my self and got hung up on, saved a worthless million
I got off with shorts and a ball, with a flower and a good do'
And I felt more like a champion than surrounded by that smoke

And, mom, if I leave, it's known to be sad
Putting the z on you like Diego de la Vega
Breakfast ice without ice on the chain
And if I look scared, my ego keeps it

I don't release sad songs, and I'm sadder than ever
I have more songs saved than apologies
The problem of time, what occupies it
The schedules changed like the luka passes

I know you hated when I left in the early morning
And when I came back, you acted like you didn't hear me
No one asked anything the next day
But yes, I lied to your face just because I felt like it

I know you hated when I left in the early morning
And when I came back, you acted like you didn't hear me
No one asked anything the next day
But yes, I lied to your face just because I felt like it

I know you hated when I left in the early morning
And when I came back, you acted like you didn't hear me
No one asked anything the next day
But yes, I lied to your face just because I felt like it

I know you hated when I left in the early morning
And when I came back, you acted like you didn't hear me
No one asked anything the next day
But yes, I lied to your face just because I felt like it